Watching is safer and the view is better, which is the honest appeal of it. The trade is that nothing happening on the field is ever yours, and the record of the season has no line for how closely you followed it. Comfort and participation are genuinely different things, and you get to choose, as long as you know you are choosing.

Find the place where you are permanently in the stands and step down once. Join the team, enter the thing, take the shift. You will be worse at it than the people playing, and you will also be in it.