Either change it or make peace with it. Staying in the middle and grumbling is the worst of both.

The middle position costs more than either end. Staying while resenting it means paying the price of the situation and the price of the resistance at the same time, and the grumbling does not move anything. Both real options, changing it or accepting it, are less exhausting than the hybrid.

Name the thing you have been complaining about for months. Decide this week which of the two you are choosing, and if it is acceptance, stop narrating it.