Make the thing your younger self was waiting for. Somebody that age is waiting for it now.

The gap you felt at thirteen was real. Whatever you wanted to find then and could not is still missing for someone, because nobody made it in the years since either. That memory is a better guide than any survey, since you know exactly what it felt like to look and come up short.

Name the thing you searched for and did not find. Make a small version of it this month, aimed at exactly that person, and keep the size small enough to actually finish.