Keeping a fake image up is a second job that never pays.

An invented version of yourself has to be maintained. You keep track of what each group believes, you edit stories so they match, and you avoid the rooms where two audiences might meet. All that upkeep runs quietly in the background and leaves you tired for reasons you cannot point to.

Pick one thing you have been performing and let it go somewhere low stakes. Admit you have not seen the show, or that the class is hard, or that you are broke this month. The energy that comes back is the pay you were never getting.