The routine you resent may need changing before you blame yourself for avoiding it.

Avoidance is often treated as a character fault when it is closer to a signal. A routine you dread every time may be badly sized, badly timed, or built for a version of your life that no longer exists, and no amount of discipline will make a poor fit feel good. The failure to keep it is information about the routine rather than a verdict on you.

Take the thing you keep skipping and change one structural feature: the hour, the length, the place, whether it happens alone. Try the new shape three times before deciding anything about yourself.