Meaning grows through participation, not endless observation.

Observation keeps you outside the thing you are assessing, and from outside there is nothing to feel. Meaning is generated by involvement, by having something at stake and something depending on you, which is exactly what watching avoids. You can study a subject indefinitely and remain untouched by it.

Pick something you have been considering from a distance and enter it in some small, committing way. Join, volunteer, contribute, sign up. The understanding you were waiting for usually only becomes available once you are inside.