Christians who never wrestled with anything usually have a faith that fits in a pocket.

Belief that has never met resistance has also never been tested for load. A faith assembled entirely out of agreement stays small, because nothing ever forced it to grow past the first shape it had. Wrestling is unpleasant and usually feels like losing something, and it is what produces the version that holds weight.

Take the question you have been quietly avoiding and actually look at it this week. Read something honest about it and talk to someone who will not be alarmed. A faith that gets bigger has usually been through this more than once.