Being chosen by God doesn’t come with a tryout.

There was no evaluation round. You were not selected for outperforming somebody, which means no performance gets you dropped either, and that is harder to accept than it sounds. People who have only ever earned things keep waiting for the cut list to be posted. Being chosen this way removes the whole apparatus.

Notice the days you feel further from God and check whether they are simply the days you did badly at something. If belonging rises and falls with your results, it is tracking your performance rather than the truth. Go anyway on the days you feel unqualified.