Perfectionism is trying to earn what grace already handed you for free.

Perfectionism looks like high standards and behaves like a debt. You are working toward a level that would make you acceptable, and every achievement quietly resets the bar, so the account never clears. Grace already settled the thing you are trying to earn. The effort is real and the earning is unnecessary.

Notice the sentence running underneath the effort, the one that begins with once I finally. Do something this week to a good enough standard on purpose and leave it there. See whether the ground holds, because it does, and that is information you need.