The gap between who you are and who you want to be is mostly calendar.

Most of the distance between the two versions is not talent or personality. It is hours, and where they currently go. The person you want to be does certain things weekly, and your week either contains them or it does not. That is a smaller, more boring problem than it feels like at midnight.

Open your calendar and find the two hours that vanish without you choosing them. Put one thing the future version does into that slot, same day each week. Let it be small enough that you will actually keep it.