If God dropped the charges, stop holding your own trial every night.

Self condemnation can masquerade as taking responsibility. Reviewing the same failure nightly does not repair anything, and it can go on for years after the matter was actually settled, which turns an ended thing into a permanent condition. Continuing to prosecute yourself is not humility, and it is not making you safer.

When the replay begins, say plainly that this has been dealt with and turn your attention to something in front of you. Make whatever amends are genuinely still open, and then close the file. Repair is finite. Guilt without a next step is not.