God made thousands of kinds of beetles. He’s clearly not asking you to be like everyone else.

Thousands of kinds of one small creature suggest a Maker with no interest in a single approved model. The pressure to match everyone around you is coming from somewhere much smaller than that, usually a hallway or a feed. Being unlike the people near you is not a defect to be corrected.

Find the one thing about you that you have been sanding down to fit in. Keep it this week, in some small visible way, and see what happens. Most of the punishment you fear for being different turns out to be imagined, and the people worth having nearby tend to like the odd parts best.