You’re the thing somebody in your family once hoped for. Don’t waste that hope on half effort.

Somebody before you made decisions with a person like you in mind, often at real cost and without ever meeting you. That is not a debt, since nobody can be charged for their own existence. It is closer to a fact worth sitting with, that your ordinary week is somebody else’s hoped for outcome.

Let that work as encouragement rather than pressure. Take the thing you have been doing at half strength and give it a proper run for a month. Not to repay anyone, just because effort is a reasonable answer to having been wanted.