Wanting to be the best is fine. Wanting everyone else to be worse is the part to check.

A clean test hides inside that distinction. Aiming at the top sends you to the gym, the practice room, the extra hour. Hoping the field gets weaker sends you somewhere else entirely: the quiet sabotage, the withheld tip, the small relief when a rival picks up an injury. Both feel like competitiveness from inside, and only one of them builds anything.

Watch which way your mind goes when a rival does well. If the honest answer is relief when they struggle, that is worth knowing without turning it into a crisis. Try helping one competitor with something small and see whether the feeling loosens.