Your reasons fade by next week. What you actually did stays in the story.

Reasons live in your head and nowhere else. You remember being exhausted, provoked, cornered, out of options, and all of that is real, but none of it travels. What travels is the action, retold by whoever was there, in a version carrying no footnotes. Within a week you are the only person still holding your explanation.

Before doing the thing you are currently justifying, picture it described flatly with no background attached. If it still sounds like you, go ahead. If it only survives with the explanation bolted on, you have learned something useful about it.