You can be grateful for your life and still wish one part had gone differently.

Gratitude is often policed as though it has to be total. So people who are genuinely glad of their lives hide the one loss, the one wrong turn, the one person they still miss, in case naming it sounds ungrateful. But a life is not a verdict you deliver once. It can hold real thankfulness and real sorrow at the same time without either cancelling the other.

If there is a part you have not let yourself grieve because so much else went well, you are allowed to. Say it plainly, to yourself or to someone patient. Nothing you are grateful for gets smaller when you do.