You can admit you want something without pretending it is necessary.

Wanting makes many people uncomfortable, so they dress it as need: the trip is for their health, the object is an investment, the change was forced on them. The justification is meant to make the desire respectable. What it really does is put the decision on false ground, where it has to be defended with reasons you do not believe. Plain wanting is a sufficient reason for a great many things.

Try saying it without the scaffolding, at least to yourself. I would like this, and here is what it costs. Then decide on those terms, which are the true ones anyway.