Some seasons are for becoming capable of holding what you keep asking for.

Sometimes the gap between wanting something and having it is filled by the work of becoming someone who could hold it. The money, the role, the relationship you keep asking for would each require capacities you may still be building, and receiving it early can be worse than not receiving it at all.

Without treating this as a verdict on your worth, ask what the thing you want would demand of you. Attention, patience, a steadier temper, a particular skill. Then work on one of those directly. It is the most useful thing available during a season when the outcome is not yet in your hands.