A beginning can be clumsy and still be historic to the person making it.

The significance of a beginning is measured from inside, by what it cost you and what it changed. That an outside observer would see nothing remarkable is irrelevant, since they do not know what it took to get there. Clumsiness has no bearing on importance.

Give your own first steps the weight they actually have. If something was hard for you to start, that is a real fact about it, regardless of how it would look described to anyone else.