The first pancake always comes out weird. Nobody throws away the whole batch because of it.

First attempts come out badly for structural reasons. The pan is not hot yet, the settings are off, and you are still learning the feel of it, which is why the first one is strange in almost every activity anyone has learned. Nobody judges the whole batch by it, except when the batch is their own work.

Declare a first attempt this week and agree in advance to throw it away. First take, first draft, first set. The ones after it go better because the pressure went somewhere else.