You’re allowed to not be okay and still trust that God is.

Faith gets confused with feeling fine, so people who are struggling decide they have failed at it. Trust and distress can sit in the same chest at the same hour. You can be exhausted, scared, unable to explain any of it, and still hold onto God being steady when nothing in you is. Saying how bad it is does not cancel that.

Stop auditing your feelings for proof that you believe. When someone asks how you are, give one person the true answer instead of the short one. If the bad stretch keeps going, tell an adult you trust, because that is not a failure of faith either.