God isn’t threatened by your questions. He’s big enough to handle the whole list.

A question is not an act of disloyalty. Doubt tends to arrive with shame attached, as though asking something honest might break the relationship, when in practice unasked questions are what hollow it out from the inside. Anything large enough to be worth believing in is large enough to be asked about directly.

Write the questions down, including the ones that feel disrespectful. Bring them to prayer, and bring them to someone older who will not panic. Let some of them stay open for a long time. Living with an unanswered question is very different from pretending you do not have it.