Ugly finishes still count as finishes. Nobody asks the medal how it got there.
RESILIENCE
RESILIENCE
Style is not part of the result. Completing something badly puts you in exactly the same category as completing it well, and the record keeps no note of how it looked on the day. Wanting it to be elegant is understandable, and it is also a reliable way to talk yourself out of finishing at all. Done is a category, and done nicely is a preference.
Finish the thing in front of you in whatever state it is in. The essay that is worse than you wanted, the race you are walking part of, the shift you are dragging through. Hand it in, then judge it afterwards.
Which ugly finish of yours still counts fully?
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