Winning ugly still counts. Learn how to win pretty later.

Results do not come with a style grade. A scrappy win where you looked clumsy and nearly blew it goes in the same column as a beautiful one, and scrappy is usually what you get while you are still learning. Waiting until you can do it elegantly is how people stay stuck in practice.

Stop editing your performance in the middle of it this week. Get the result however you can, then watch it back afterwards and pick one thing to tidy. Finished and ugly beats pretty and imagined.