Nicodemus came to Jesus at night with questions. Later he helped bury him openly. Faith can start in the dark.

A man with a reputation to protect turns up after dark to ask what he could not ask by day. Nothing about that first visit was brave in public terms, and it still counted. Later, when it cost him something, he acted in the open. Conviction often begins privately, in questions you would not want attributed to you, and goes public much later.

If you are working something out quietly, you are allowed to keep it quiet for now. Ask the question you have been avoiding, in a message, to one person you trust. Private is not the same as dishonest.