If your faith feels like a performance review, you’ve mixed up God with a boss.

Mixing up a relationship with an appraisal changes everything about how you behave inside it. Under a boss you manage impressions, hide the bad week, and wait for the rating, and if that is the frame you are using then every quiet stretch feels like a mark against you. The anxiety is a clue that the category is wrong rather than that your performance is.

Notice which of the two you are picturing when you pray or when you avoid it. Try one week where you report nothing and ask for nothing.