You don’t have to understand every part of yourself to like who you are.

Self-knowledge is not a prerequisite for self-respect. There will be reactions you cannot explain, moods that arrive without a cause, preferences that make no sense on paper, and you are allowed to be fond of the whole arrangement anyway. Waiting until the explanation is complete means waiting forever, since people are not puzzles with a final answer at the back.

Pick one thing about yourself you have been treating as a problem to solve and try letting it be a feature for a week. Stop analysing it. See whether what you needed was understanding or simply permission.