Maturity is learning that peace can be more exciting than chaos once chaos has charged enough.

For a while chaos supplies the story and the adrenaline. Then it has cost you enough that a quiet, ordinary, dependable stretch starts to feel like something to protect rather than something to escape. The shift is not resignation; it is a repricing after seeing the invoices.

If you are still drawn to disruption, look at what the last few episodes actually cost in time, sleep, and relationships. That total is often what changes the appeal, more than any decision to be more sensible.