The clip of your mistake you don’t want to watch is usually the one with the most to teach you.

Your reluctance is a decent indicator. The clips that make you wince are the ones where something you believe about yourself got contradicted, which is exactly where the useful information lives. Watching once more without the flinch turns a feeling into a detail: your weight was back, you looked away, you were a step early. A detail can be trained, while a feeling just sits there.

Pick the moment you have been avoiding and watch it three times, slowly, looking for one mechanical thing rather than a verdict. Write that thing down. Take it to practice this week and let the rest of the clip go.