You learn your real preferences after nobody else is available to influence them.

Preferences are contagious. Around other people you absorb their tastes, adjust toward their enthusiasms, and pick options that will go over well, mostly without noticing. What you actually like only becomes legible when there is nobody to calibrate against.

Spend some time doing exactly what you want, alone, with no account of it to be given afterwards. Notice what you choose when the choice is entirely private. Some of it will match your public preferences and some will not, and the difference tells you something worth knowing about how much of your life is arranged for others.