Awkwardness often lasts longest in the person doing the most careful remembering.

Embarrassment tends to be a private archive. The moment you replay was, for everyone else, a small unremarkable event that dissolved within a week, and the reason it survives in you is that you are the only one filing it carefully. Detail keeps it alive, and you hold all the detail. That imbalance makes cringing feel like memory when it is closer to a habit of rehearsal.

When an old moment surfaces, ask who else would still recall it. Then say it out loud to a friend, since spoken once it usually shrinks.