You partly raised yourself. That’s why you know how to start from nothing.

Filling in gaps that should have been filled by someone else is not something anyone should have had to do. It also left you with abilities that are hard to acquire any other way, figuring out systems alone, feeding yourself, deciding when nobody else is going to decide. Naming the cost does not cancel the skill, and naming the skill does not excuse the cost.

Take stock of what you can already do that peers are only now learning. Then let yourself accept help where it is offered, because asking is not a step backwards.