An MVP trophy from a losing season is a lonely thing to carry home.

Individual recognition inside a collective failure sits strangely, because the thing you were actually part of did not work. The award acknowledges your contribution and cannot supply what you were after, which was the shared version of it. That gap is not ingratitude. It is an accurate reading of what you value.

Let it stay complicated rather than picking one feeling. Keep the trophy and take the honest lesson too, which is usually about what the group needed and did not have. And notice that wanting the collective result more says something good about you.