Stop punishing the fourteen-year-old you. They were doing their best with way less information.

Judging your past self uses information that person never had, which makes the verdict unfair before it starts. They were working with a smaller picture, fewer skills, and whatever was going on around them at the time. Most of what looks like a bad decision now was a reasonable one then.

When an old memory arrives with a wince attached, put back the context that was actually there. Ask what that person was trying to protect. You can regret an outcome without prosecuting the kid who chose it.