Being bad at something in public is the price of being good at it later.

Every competent person you admire went through a stretch of being visibly poor at the thing, and you did not see it, which makes your own early stage feel like evidence about you. There is no route from new to good that skips that stretch. Paying the fee early, in small rooms, is far cheaper than paying it at twenty-five with more pride invested.

Choose one thing to be a beginner at this month and do it where people can see. Treat the first six weeks as the fee, then stay long enough to stop paying it.